unspoken words
DENISE NG:)Archive for church
doesn’t always go my way:/
it has been 2 weeks since J2 started! many ups and downs in this 2 weeks though, but everyday just seem to pass so fast. i am totally drowned in tutorials, assignments and tests! RAWRR:/but thankfully, i’m only left with chem paper on monday and GP on thursday:)
okay the ups first! had SP gathering like last Friday? hahahha, it was totally an awesome time of gathering and having fun bbq-ing:) i am starting to get comfortable being in z2. as in initally, it was really hard for me as i am like officially inn z2. but thank god for all the nice z2 people! hahahaha:D also, yesterday was great! Friday is like my favourite day 
cos school ends early! better than other days, end at 4,5. went back to mpss to help revise for the sec3′s JNCO exam, and also train the competition team members. Didn’t have to raise my voice yesterday. everyone suddenly seemed so discipline and all, except for 2 sec5s that totally boiled me up. but since my TIC spoke to them, they were kinda spared from my scolding. hahaha:) hope that i can start to be nicer by not scolding, as long as they keep up their good work! jiayou people:)
okay now, for the downs. went out with my church clique on Thursday to celebrate esther’s birthday. so we met up to give her a surprise at RJ. when the 3 of us first meet up to do esther’s card, i felt kinda weird there because i know the 2 of them wanted to talk about stuff, but because i was there so they had to like sms each other? and it was wayy obvious cos caroline kept saying, erm tell you later-as in the you is shiny. so i was there just editing esther’s card. and after that, when we surprised esther and she came to join us, they were talking about some guys from their schools. similarly, i didn’t know what was going on-except for some. so i just sat there and listen. as in, it felt as if i was there just because it have been the 4 of us since sec2. but its not because like i am there because the 4 of us know whats going on in each other’s life. okay, i don’t know how to put this. as in, it seemed like i was there because it would have been bad if they didn’t ask me along cos we are one clique. but the matter of fact, i couldn’t seem to catch what they were talking about. this happened last year too. but after some sorting out, things got better and now history is repeating itself again. honestly, i don’t feel that i’m enjoying the time together cos the conversations were things that the 3 of them already know, while it seem so new to me. i don’t know how things will go in time to come, but i really don’t want to make myself doubt my identity in that clique anymore. i must totally get myself out of this:)
HAPPY NEW YEAR:)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
i just realised i’m quite terrible, have not been updating for almost a month! HAHAHAHA:) it’s okay, i will update all at one go! anyway had a great church camp @port dickson, Malaysia. It has just been awesome how 600people can come together in one camp, have fun and worship God:):) it’s one experience i will never forget. From church camp, things has just been so packed for me until today. Celebrated my bro’s birthday, had stayover @my place, shopping and sjab zone retreat. Before i know it, it’s countdown for 2010! AWESOMENESS, its now 2010 already. i just cant believe how time flies so fast without me knowing it. I’m 18 this year!! that’s like terribly old already! and the worse would be A’s this year): it just seemed as if O’s just ended for me, and now A’s! I’m praying hard that i can focus this year and do well for A’s
Anyway, had an awesome picnic with my sec sch clique yesterday! great way to celebrate the new year:) I reached home @4am that morning, slept @5am and woke up at 745am. I could barely wake up! But yea, we had a great time @marina barrage, chatting and flying kites like some small kids! It just doesn’t feel the same being with secondary school friends. I guess because these friends are those whom you mature with:)
Today is daddy’s birthday! actually, have not thought of whether to celebrate out or at home. Shall decide after church later:) HEEES. cell starts @830am later. As this is a new year, i would be joining z2 from tomorrow forth-with andrew’s cell. I pray that everything will go well this year; be it studies, family, sjab or church:) MUST KEEP MYSELF FOCUS AFTER TODAY! LOTS OF ASSIGNMENTS WAITING FOR ME):
